New Year, New Semester, New Life....

Our lecture starts earlier this semester, because of this, most of us stay back for Christmas. My first time to spent Christmas on my own. Have nothing in mind except waiting for friends to suggest. Feeling lonely for this year Christmas, no bbq gathering at relatives house, no karaoke, no dance and no more performing family choir at my aunt's house. I miss that... ^^ Every year's Christmas celebration, we'll just go around the whole city visit our relatives. The most enjoyable is every night (from Christmas eve till New Year) my close relatives will take turn to organized some sharing in words of God, bbq, and karaoke at respective houses. ^^ Besides that, I miss doing some performing in church during Christmas too. ^^ Dancing and choir-ing to deliver the Msg of Christmas.... all this I've to put it aside this year. Huhuhuhu...

But above all, This is the most important semester for me... ^^ Have to do it well this semester, else.... results will be very poor... Hehe... Hope I can finish my thesis on time too...^^

Besides all this, I realized a New Year is coming soon too. Before I knew start to think about my new list for next year, I was surprise that I've achieve my most of my short-term goals faster that I could imaging. ^^ Thank You God!! ^^

Anyway... Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Everyone!!! ^^

Regrets...

This morning, when my malay coursemate asked my frens why they don't wanna go their open house and my frens answer was becoz of me. Because I didn't go then no one fetch them. I was so disappointed to hear that, they just beside me. My mind starts to wondering, do they ever think of how I'll felt when they said it that way? I did asked them whether they wanna go or not. I put their answer first to decide whether want to go or not but then... last last they throw the blame on me. I understand that they do care about what my coursemate think of them. But then, I couldn't understand that if you know you care about what people think of you then how come you don't know that I also do care about what others think of me if you said it that way?? I felt moody, sad and disappointed but then I just keep myself silent and think about what have I done, is it wrong? Is it I'm too sensitive to feel this way? Maybe they just being selfish??

Thinking about the 'selfish' because of the matter above, suddenly my mind flashed back the few mistakes that I have made... Each of us will always be controlled by our emotions i guess. Few years back, I was lost cause I couldn't bear the pain of fallen out of my last relationship. The pain changed me. I turn to be not believing in any relationship and was trying all my best to protect myself from being in love with someone. Relationship was just all about pain and disappointment. What's the used of fall in love if it's always hurt me back?? For years, I felt this way and I did some mistakes in thinking this way. Anyhow, it's lucky that I didn't go far away. Thank God that He still loves me and shows me the way to turn myself back. I admit I was wrong. I admit I did hurt someone because of this and I'm sorry for being such selfish. Not to say, the pain I suffer, the fear in me is totally gone now. The scars is still there, inside me. I learned how to live with it, how to be a better person from someone I meet during my practical and I meet another person that made me strong and brave enough to stepped out of it this year. It's God's mercy that rain upon me. He's always there protecting me from any harm. He never leave me even I'm always stubborn enough in going against Him. Maybe some people will felt bad about me but so do I. I admit because I know I'm wrong and I'm not proud of it. I admit it because I don't wanna forget the mistakes that I did, I wanna remember it and I'm willing to change from it. That's all I could say.

Night, when the sun is about to set, I told myself, "forgive and forget before sunset, then life would be much wonderful." and loving each other is all we need to learn....

Can't Sleep Well

I can't sleep well last night, and I'm not sure about the reason. I felt kinda moody last tonite, after sharing all my problem with Brian after dinner. It's good to share and have someone that will to listen to you but then the problem keep flashing in my mind after I shared that's why it makes me moody I guess. I was rushing for my assignment and presentation until 3.30am but then I don't felt like sleeping after that. Well, who wanna sleep at this mood anyway? Sleeping in moody state during night always end up bad dreams and can't really rest my mind. That's why I don't felt like sleeping.
Anyhow, everyday is a brand new day!! I'll try to enjoy my day today... ^^ Going to class now...

Sick...

Day 1
Suddenly after enjoying my holidays at cameron highlands, I got sick on Monday afternoon.
I was still able to chit-chat with him on that afternoon even thought I'm really sleepy and keep on sneezing. I felt asleep half-way chatting but then as usual, he never blame, never scold every time I accidentally slept half way chatting and I'm always grateful of that. I knew being such a understanding and tolerate with me is not an easy job... ^^ It's almost evening time that my headache became more more pain and I became more ans more dizzy. I was nervous and tears start to flow out of my eyes, keep sending sms seeking for help from friends but no one replied make it worst for me (because that is our nap time). Thank God after half an hour of sms-ing, mee na replied me. ^^ and take me to clinic. Thank You mee na...
Nite, one of my coursemate was shock when she got into my room, because I was totally weak and pale, she looks worry but then I was too tired, too weak to talk to her. So, I just ignore her. ^^

Day 2
I sms-ed ah jeng to ask her to company me to clinic again today cause I felt I'm getting worst from last nite. I remembered I suffer headache and dizzy at 3am until I felt like I'm half dead oredy but then I didn't call anyone cause I don't wanna interrupt anyone selfishly. Early morning jeng came, my tears was flowing when she opened the door, after so much suffer from dizziness, a friend beside and comfort me is the most I could appreciate. We called taxi to bring us to clinic. This time, doctor said I got virus fever which causes me to felt totally weak and sometimes the pains come and sometime it goes away. If this situation continue that way, then I might have to inject H1N1 injection just in case I'm infected by it.
I slept for the whole afternoon after I came back from clinic. Only wake up to had my lunch and medicine then sleep back. Prescilla and mee ching help me in completing our group presentation in my room and I'm grateful that I've them to help and keep me on track during this period. Although, I'm sick so badly but then I still arrange gathering dinner for my cg. I didn't told you bout this because I guess you'll gonna stop me from doing it if you knew it. I even ask jeng to company me to drive bumble bee to Brian's college just to make everything easier for him and me when I need someone.
Nite time, I went to cg gathering, everyone had they proper dinner but all I could have is my raisin pandan bread and a cup of warm milo. I didn't drink any coffee since I'm sick because mum and friends asked me not to. One more thing, in all of sudden, I miss durians. hee^^ I was telling my friends that I wanna get well soon because I wanna eat durians.

When I heard I have to hand in my self-reflection the next day, I'm not sure should I asked him to help me with it. I planned to type it myself as it is my own self reflection but my mind does not allow me and 3 pages is kinda hard for me to complete it on time too. But then, he helped me typing out the whole thing and allow me to have my own rest. Thank you dear! Surprisingly, when I read the document he typed on the next morning, it's all what I wanna express too. I really appreciate it when I read it.

Day 3
I woke up with tiring mind and eyes but then I have to edit self reflection that he had email me and print out presentation slides for my teammate. Reading on the self reflection that he had typed out, really touched me. I never thought that he could understand me that well cause I only give him plenty information then I slept cause of tired oredy. I was worry that he could get my words but then he did it very well. Thank you very much! After done with my assignment and updating myself at facebook, I boiled some water and poured it into my 12gallons pail, mixed it with cold water then bathe myself. I've not been properly bathe for 2days! hee...^^
Anyhow, I'm getting better today. Still need some rest but then it's getting better! ^^

Sunday 20th Sept

I realize I often flash back to all the first time we've been together these few days. Maybe I miss him, I miss those days too much or maybe I'm fighting with my inner-self and felt like I need someone to be beside me, just to make myself feel better?? This semester is totally unpredictable, I felt like everything is a mess neither physically, mentally nor spiritually. I felt like I don't really know what am I doing sometimes. Often, I need to cheer up myself to let my working mood turned on. Sometime I do worry about myself, am I going to grade or not??
I felt sorry for my cg, coz I'm not that available not that active as the semester before. I found it hard for me to find a time that I could just totally focusing for them. But then, my mind set the intention, set the image of it but my heart felt guilty and sorry for them that I'm always full of worries about my studies and often neglected them. I asked God to help me each day, in leading and guiding this cg and I believe He is finding a way for me or maybe He did prepared a way but then it's not the right time to show?? I have no idea...

-2 weeks-

It's been 2 weeks that I didn't update this blog. Kinda hard to get stable internet connection these days. My celcom broadband is not stable as 2months before. I guess tht's wat happened when more and more ppl came to use the same internet connection here.
Let's talk bout this 2 weeks... of coz there is alot of stuff happening right here. This remind me of how dumb i am last 2 weeks ago... haha.... i've done the most stupidest decision and action... Some of u may ordy knew it... but for those who don't know.... *hehehe* I don't think I wanna mention it right here. Haha...*keep it to myself*

I drove to muar last friday for my school management assignment. I went to my previous practical school. Gosh!! How I miss that school, those students!!! Miss them so much!! I miss the small town also. Although it's just a small town, there is no big shopping complex around but the people around is nice. Well, there is a different if you compare it with big city residents. People in small town is always helpful than those in big cities. I guess it's because there is always a risk whenever u try to become helpful to others in big cities. So to avoid the risk, everyone tends to look after themselves only and depends on their own (Not everyone maybe but most of them i guess). Back to the school where I miss the most amongst all the building in muar. ^^ Again.. I miss them so much... haha... They are more than just students. ^^ They shared their personal experience, they treat me like their sister when it is outside the school, they introduce their parents, teach me where to find tasty food, teach me how to drive around the small town and so on... ^^ I'm their student when it is outside the school or maybe even outside the class. I appreciate their friendliness the most. Yea... it makes me feel comfortable with the new place. I'm glad to become their teacher for about 4months. *Hehe...* There are times when they lost control and misbehaves; and they are naughty all the time.... (yes!! i mean all the time...) but they always do apologize for their misbehaves and naughty is what makes them cute and funny. Seeing how they behave it's like seeing how did my old secondary schoolmates behave last time. Haha... Except for one or two special incidents... One thing about my students is they don't allow me to show sour face. Whenever after I shout and show them my anger, they'll always pamper me to smile first before I continue on the lesson. They reason is always "We don't like teacher to look at us with long and sour face, we want teacher to smile while teaching us." =.=!! That's why they'll make "ghost face" to cheer me up after I shouted and says "That's more like it, continue the teaching teacher!" ^^ I guess tht's y i miss them so much?? Haha... The moments I stepped out of the school last friday, it was very touching. When can I meet them again?? How bout those that I have not yet meet them?? When can I stepped into that school again?? The questions pop out in my mind. But no matter what... It'll always be a lifetime experience... a sweet ones.

Moving out of the school, now I miss those time where 3 of us use to find good food at muar. Haha... Muar is famous for its food btw especially otak-otak. That's why we always drove around the town to find some good food for our dinner. One more thing bout muar is... the secret recepi at muar is far more delicious compared to KL and JB. We don't know why but we really enjoy the muar secret receipi and we actually miss it!!. ^^

Muar is a very small town hence there is not much place to shop. So during our practical time, when we need to do some shopping we'll drive to Melaka, which is just 30min drive from muar. We miss shopping and exploring Melaka also. Especially dataran pahlawan area and jonker walk. Satay celup and pineapple tart!! Wah!! Nice... nice!! Haha... Dataran pahlawan is good enough for us to 'shop till drop' also... It's one of our shopping paradise at the moment. Hehe... (Much much more better than JB's mall) We even can recognize Melaka's town road already. Haha...(That's show how often we went there.) Well, it's a nice place to shop and nice place to visit because of it's historical places around. =)Picture taken before enjoying our lunch at muar secret receipi... ^^

Penang trip2~

These are some of my penang trip pictures...^^
Day One

Waiting for our turn to fly up up to the sky at the boarding room..^^

We felt that Queensbay guard's uniform is unique so we took picture with them. (",)
Nice rite?? Like cowboys...

Because the sky keep on crying so we decided to fool around in queensbay. Hehe...

Even a toilet sign can be our play ground... hee...

The rain stop for a while... we ran to queensbay roundabout just to take picture... hee^^
(btw... queensbay is the biggest jusco in Malaysia now. ^^)

found dragon ball at the roundabout...^^

Penang Bridge View from outside queensbay... ^^

Day Two
Food Hunting!!!^^

Fish Fillet Tom Yam Noodle...
This is nice!! hee^^

Tom Yam Noodle with seafood (You may choose your own choice of seafood) ^^


Next Station.... Beach!!
Guess what's the name of this beach?

After play play at the sea side must clean your feet...
The way they store water for customer to clean their legs are unique rite?? =)
Next... to nite market... (will be continue on next post)

Penang Trip~

Penang!! One of the place I wish to visit since my first year. The first we planned to visit is during my 3rd year but then we didn't make it that time and the ticket was burned (luckily it's just one way ticket). After then, we planned for the second time, expecting we'll have mid sem break during national day week. Even though it's not like what we expected but we still fly there coz we don't wanna miss the chance somemore. haha... But then the timing seems to be not that right... we've been there for 5days but only manage to visit few places due to the raining weather there... ^^ and we had some funny stories on the last night at penang also... haha... it's a long story... ask me personally if you wanna knw coz i don't know how to describe it with words here... haha...

well, the whole trip is fun and relaxed but it's kinda tiring when we got back coz we used bus from KL to JB on the last day. The moral is... next time don't transits bus... haha...

I've been trying to upload some pictures but my internet connection doesn't allow it. Maybe will upload again some other days...

Blessed Day 5

It's been awhile that I didn't update my day in here. My younger bro, Brian is studying here now... same state same district but not the same campus. It's always nice and comfort when there's family member around you. I'm thankful and happy that God placed Brian here, very near to me. At least, I know who to depend on when got mechanical problems. XD That's not all I'm thankful and happy about... there's more.... some of u may knew it already, me n brian always stick together even when he or me is going for a date. haha... We shared almost every single part of our life, most of the incidents that happened, our thoughts, our weaknesses, spirituals being and even some generic skills. That's how close we are.... from bro and sis to closest fren or maybe being a trouble maker sometimes; but anyhow it's God blessing and anointing that make us one.

Back to my final year life, busy busy busy..... busy till only spent 30min for sleep also got... tension tension tension coz of lecturers, assignments and some other thing. Until I started to wondering... izzit every final year student will experience this kind of situation?? Full of tension and anxious everyday... I miss those days that I could easily wake myself up in the morning. I miss those days that I could just spent enough of my time on cg... feel bad for myself... I also miss those days that I could just treat everything easy (lack of sleep makes me feel stress easily). haiz... It's a pleasure and thankful that I could spent part of my night today in sharing together with cg. I miss cg sharing moments so badly, a place where(beside my house) I can share... I had a great time tonite althou some cant joined us but I felt very comfy already. Thankiu my dearly cg's members~!! May God Bless You All... gambateh!!

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"New Thinking. New Rona." I like this slogan very much. hehe... It remain me that I should refresh my mind everyday. As a christian, we have to forgive and forget whatever others had done to us before the sun set... but it's not easy to do that everyday especially towards those that really made us torturing and hurting inside. Somehow, we have to forgive and forget also and it's actually gives us a better sleep at night.

It's Just Another Those Days....

Came back from kedah this morning, reached my room around 2am with a compound letter, fined me for hanging clothes at the locker handle??!!??.... Forget bout it... I'm terribly tired and my neck is pain already. Skipped my 9am class this morning, really tired and woke up around 11am. Just after 30min awake, I was given a huge surprise--->"Pass up assignment at 12" Again... we're played by the same lecturer... he post the question and the due date were this thursday but then.... he edit it w/o informing anyone... My mind--> "forget bout tht, I got quiz at 2pm later. 1st thing 1st..." About 1 hour later, another surprise!! Assignment due changed to 5pm. wth... We got class from 2pm till 4pm and class at 3pm-4pm is his class. Doesn't he realize that?? Doesn't he felt thst he's way too much for torturing us?? I had enough these days... I really do... I just wanna be neutral... just don't wanna get myself out of control especially when I'm alone. My tears likes to flow out of my eyes when I'm alone and I'll felt terrible pain inside of me every time my tears come. I have to told myself everything would be fine after tears or else it just won't stop feeling pain inside.
Maybe I disappointed him today. I refuse to send him my picture. Sorry dear. I don't want to show this miserable look of mine today. Hope you understand.
Read my bro's blog and he did mention about clubbing... clubbing a place where I can sweat by dancing the whole night even w/o a partner. Maybe for someone it is a wrong place for me to be but I just wanna emphasize... I'm going there coz it's one of the ways to release stress, and get myself workout and learn some moves... and I'm staying out of drugs and drunk. So izzit still a wrong place for me to be??

Going to Kedah for school visitation

I'll be away for this weekend for school visitation. It's part of our coursework marks and this time we'll go alor setar, kedah. Don't know how am I going to bare that 10 hours in a bus. XD
Hmm.... Don't know why I'm not excited for this trip... but somehow I hope I'll enjoy it. I'll be offline for this weekend guys!!
I did a morning call today and I hope it'll brighten up his day. *shy* Miss him to the max!!! But he is busy with some workshop so don't wanna disturb him la... 3 days 2 night trip means 3 days 2 night can't online.... aaaahhhh.... can don't want ma??? I miss him le... huhuhu...

Anger

"Anger is an emotional state that may range from minor irritation to intense rage." (Wikipedia)
Everyone gets angry; it’s a natural human emotion. Maybe anger is healthy but if it becomes uncontrollable, it can become destructive....

Yeah... I'm dealing with my own anger this few days. Although I may not showing it physically but emotionally i did... by posting it at my fb shout out... XD
I find myself has difficulty in showing my anger physically... and it happens very often. But i'm lucky enough cause there's always someone there to backup me.... Then, always advice me to be brave to show my aggressive part after backup me. haha... Sometime I did shows my anger but only when it's really boiling me up for a long time. That's why i often heard "It's okay with rona la. She won't angry one." or "I never seen u angry b4 le..." Hmm... sometime I do hope I have the guts to show it on the spot but it always end up keeping myself quiet for the rest of the time. Yea... when u found me being totally quiet in a sudden... tht's actly I'm angry or something is bothering me already but then I won't show it because I don't want to hurt anyone. haha... I knew it's actly not a good thing to keep all the anger inside but I really have problem in showing it. So how do i release it??? Tears, karaoke, McD or burger king, dancing, burst it out with close ones and getting myself sweats.... That's most of the way I release it and it must be done just before I slept... or else... I can't get a good sleep on that night. Hehe... One more thing, I don't like to deal with anger in early morning especially just after I woke up... it always bother and spoiled my day.... haha... beware guys~!!

It's Just Another Those Days....

Felt tired, miserable, terrible and anything I couldn't think off. Woke up late this morning around 840am and guess what!! I got quiz class at 9am!! Rush... change clothes, brush teeth, wash face then grab notes and go!! Too bad... I'm still late for quiz... 10minute late. But still... at least I did pass up something. Felt sorry for mc and pres coz they were late coz of me..=) sorry girls!! The story goes on.... what happened next?? I got gastric in class so I skipped my second class and went to have some breakfast which I had to force myself to eat it. huhuhu.... After breakfast, meet lecturer for one of my assignment then entered the next class. Gosh!! our group power point is totally different from other group!! We got the wrong perception for today's presentation. wuwuwuwu... then we just simply present on the spot coz there's no time to modify our power point anyhow. AArrrGGGGhhhhh..... after all lecture, I was preparing myself to meet my thesis lecturer and got a call from someone regarding one of my subject assignment.... not a good news either... we're required to join a programme on next tuesday and wednesday, plus we have to produce a module for that programme and our faculty dean is following!!! inside me-----> *WHAT!!!! PREPARE MODULE IN TWO DAYS???!!!!??? DEAN ALSO FOLLOWING???!!!!??? DUH!!!!* Tht's not end of the story yet... after I hang up the call then I find out I left my thesis chapter 1 in my room!! Too rush and I didn't double checked what did I grab this morning. AAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I really wanna scream that time.... called mc asked what shud I do then... I really have no idea that time blurred and upset of myself that cause this much trouble... Well, instead of keep wondering what negative views and minus my marks from my lecturer.... It's better to think how am I going to meet lecturer then. *Deep breath!!* Inside of me told me just go and be honest! mc said she felt the same way too. I'm not sure that lecturer told me his not that free today as he has some visitors from KL is my the point where my luck turned. Bravely, I told him everything. Hmmm.... I guess I did show up my anxious and he asked me to be more focus. aaarrrggghhh....

Waiting for the One

I find myself always waiting for something recently, especially for the special one. "Waiting" which originated from the word "wait", is a word that needs a lot of patient and is very challenging in some situation. Some people spent their whole life waiting for the right one at the right time but some just couldn't wait until the right time, and just keep on searching till the right one came into sight. Generally, everyone is waiting for the one........ and the one that I'm waiting for is.......

someone who will give me a morning call sometime...
someone who always will try to understand me...
someone who need me when he's down...
someone who think of me just after he woke up every morning...
someone who appreciate every single moments we spent together...
someone who shows he cares no matter what's the situation is...
someone who knows my weakness and accept it...
someone who can bear with me sometime...
someone who respects me…
someone who don't mind about my shameful past...
someone who loves to hold my hands...
someone who insists to be beside me even i ask him not to...
someone who wanna grow old with me...
someone who shows how precious am I to him...
someone who will hug me when I cry...
someone who will kiss my forehead instead of my lips...
someone who will give me surprise...
someone who will try all his best to light up my day...
someone who I can think of at the first place every morning...
someone who makes me comfortable with...
someone who I can share my everything and be honest with myself...
someone who wants to be my closest friend other than just a life-partner...
someone who insists to meet me even when I refuse to...
someone who won't leave me alone even I force him to...
someone who loves to spend time with me...
someone who is alert and knows what am i thinking...
someone who think and will told his friends I'm the one for him...
someone who able to take care of me when I'm sick...
someone who wants to take me deeper into part of him…
someone who is indeed in love with me...

Love

Love is Patient, Love is Kind. It does not Envy, it does not Boast, it is not Proud. It is not Rude, It is not Self-seeking, it is not easily Angered, it keeps no records of Wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always Protects, always Trusts, always Preserves.

1 Corr 13:4-7

Dre@Ms

"Dreams are like stars in the sky, we can't touch it but you'll reach your destiny if you follow it."

Dreams are part of us. We dream about everything we could imagine and dreams are the only reason we move on. Love, family, wealth, spiritual beings are all we could ever dreamed of. We often start our dreams with great intention but along the way to reach that dream of us there is always hurts and fails. Most of the people tend to "turn off" their dreams as when they had failed once or more and "switch" to the other path where they could just stay under a comfort zone and refuse to stepped out of it. That's when "no time" came to our mind and became one of our excuse. As time passed by, dreams fade away, useless and hopeless feeling developed, realizing all this while they had been on the wrong tracks.

How bout you?? Are you on the right track today?? Are you following your own dreams?? or Are you chasing what others dreamed of instead of yourself??

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today." James Dean (1931-1955)

Lonely

I guess I know how terrible it is when we felt lonely, I used to felt that way during my first year in university. Yea... I'm not a good socialize person indeed. I'm not good at jokes and always the blur one. especially when I'm with someone that I'm not familiar with, I'll be very quiet. That's me. I grown up in a world that is surrounded by boys and I really cannot accept it at first when most of my friends is girls including my coursemate (only 3 boys). It doesn't mean that I don't like to be with girls and I don't have any girls friends. It just that I couldn't really believe in girls when I share my personal thingy. Yea... I've been threatened by plenty of my girls friends and I just couldn't believe in girls promise for keeping secrets. Some girls even spread the nonsense gossip about me during my secondary school and I don't even know what's the reason. Girls hurt me a lot during my teenage life that's why I'm always more comfortable with boys. Even my house is full of boys!!! XD My first year is the toughest time thoughout my campus life, especially when it comes to facing the sadness of my broken relationship. I cried for 3 months for that... secretly of coz. Hehe... But then really comforts me is when my previous cg leaders came and approached me that time. Anyhow, I still have to face and overcome it on my own. That's the only reason I refuse to fly back home during my semester break actly. I knew I need time to adjust myself back to normal, and by doing it with an easier way is to distance myself from places that is full of his and mine memories. Yea... I was very lonely that time, and I keep reminding myself that no matter what I have to move on, I have to forget. Somehow, I manage to burried that sadness in the deepest part of my heart and forget about it after some time. Well, it's still hurt sometime when I think of it but life is like this. It's part of me, part of my memories and part of what's God has planned. Althou, it has been the most lonely time of my life that no one could have help and physically accompanied me (Why?? Because there's a secret behind it..), anyhow it teaches and complete me I guess.

Recovered

No more dizzy!!! Yea... been dizzy for 2days already. Skipped some of my class yesterday cause can't stand the pain i got in my head, but then my coursemate called and remind me to pass up my assignment. No choice but to wake up and do the assignment. But again... the only thing I could do is starring at the question and think "what-lah this question is asking??" haha... Called mee ching and pres for help. Hehe... Then we discuss wanna copy whose answer and sms tht person. haha... Student are always like that kan?? copy only... haha... always think "nvm la. as long as i got pass up." lolz... even we knew tht's not the right way to do...
hmm... althou i'm sick for this two days but I still hang out with friends and juniors. hehe... and my friends... glad they put so much confident in me and still brave enough to "tumpang" my car go southern college to settle my little brother's registration. haha...
Last nite, I went to junior's welcoming nite and had a great time there. It's part of our responsible as a senior, we should guide and bless our junior to make them feel comfortable here and that they are not alone always. XD

Blessed Sunday

Special event of the day~!!! Gathering with my coursemate for dinner. It's been a long time that we didn't sat down and really talked to each other. I had wonderful time with them today (although I didn't talked much *smile*) but it's fun to just listen and notice some of them. Hehe...
Oh ya... after having dinner with coursemate, I went to KTHO to celebrate roger and chuan ming's birthday. haha... It's nice to spend time meeting people during the weekend!!

Feeding the Five Thousand

Sunday~ As usual, woke up early for church morning service. Today's sermon is interesting, which is about the story of Jesus feeding the five thousand people. Why do i say it's interesting? Well, all this while, my view about this story is just about one of the miracle that Jesus had done but it also shows some part of our life. The power of prayer. Jesus prayed for the very little food that they have on that time and surprisingly everyone are blessed with more than enough food. God answered Jesus prayer and He knew Jesus prayed confidently and faithfully that God will blessed all of them. Everyday we had our quite time and we prayed for the day. But are we confident enough that God will answered our prayer when we walked out of the door? Even if He didn't answered, will we still continue to pray confidently and faithfully? My mum prayed for my dad for about 17 years before my dad became a christian. For 17 years, every morning my mum prayed for my dad, humble, crying, confidently and faithfully believes that God will answered her prayer. and yes... God answered with a different way. It's a very beautiful and blessed memories for me.

Lecturer fly me Aeroplane!!!

ish ish ish... nowdays lecturer also know how to aeroplane students. Maybe some of you will wonder why aeroplane? haha... well, it's one of mandarin term... when a person promise to meet but then didn't showed up without any reason. YES!!! my lecturer did it!! The whole course was looking for him since yesterday afternoon. We called him, no answer. We all sms-ed him, he only reply to one person (my coursemate) asked her to wait his answer and the others (including me) keep waiting for his reply. We make sure our saturday is empty because of his promise that will bring us to meet school principle (for our assignment). I even cancelled my "one day jb trip" which I planned to join earlier. But then, all gone. We wait for him to confirm us the time. Then suddenly around 11.10am then he sms inform us to sms him again on monday. ish ish ish... I really felt like wanna punch him since last nite!!! But then, instead of thinking about it. I continue my sleep. haha... I woke up very late today. Around 1230pm. Actually, I woke up at 615am this morning to help yng jeng prepare breakfast for those participants on "one day JB trip". (right: picture of 14 loaf of breads. Left: smash the 30 eggs!!). Then after that, i slept back again around 830am till I got my lecturer's sms, after i read it, sleep back again till 1230pm. .
Well, today day is short for me, maybe because I woke up that late. After washing myself and my 1 week clothes, it's already 230pm. Then, I start to surf internet for my thesis information but then I didn't realize I was in front of my lappie for the whole afternoon! By the time i realize, it was 640pm already. What a day!! went to mamak for roti "i love you" (3 flavours in 1 roti canai with a heart shape) and roti naan 3 rasa (roti naan with kaya, garlic and bit chili on it). That's how I spent my saturday for this week.

Blessed Day 4

It's FRIDAY~!!!! Friday is always my favorite day especially when there is no class at all. haha... I wished for it since first year and finally God make it fulfilled it on my final year. XD Although it's Friday and I can sleep till noon time, but I still wake up at 830am and asking myself why can't I continue to sleep till 10 or 11am? Maybe get used to wake up early for lecture already. hehe... Anywhere, plenty of stuff i did today...

First, my new student card... i lost mine last few days... so make a new one.
I also got my little yellow's student id already. Forget to take a picture of it and I stick it on already maybe next time.

Second, I got the new rm50 notes!!! haha... I was accompanying my friend to atm machine and she was surprise that she got this new rm50 notes!


You know what happened then?? I purposely go take money from that atm machine too!!! XD

That's what happened after we got excited of having those new notes!!

What's next??

This is a map of johor that I took it from mee na (with her permission of cause).
I stick in on my wall to cover some dirty spots where the previous person placed something and leaving some strains on it. Anyhow, I like this map. Thanks mee na! XD





Besides all this, I had a new record of buying 16 loaf of breads tonite!! Imagine we walk around giant with 16 loaf of breads in our trolley!! not to mention other stuff also. haha... Well, 14 loaf of the breads is for tomorrow's one day JB trip. We're assign to prepare egg sandwich for breakfast and they were about 85 person. That's why we need 14 loaf of breads. haha...

Blessed Day 3

It's a beautiful day!! Although I woke up late this morning but I felt extremely happy this morning. Hehe... it's really nice when you'll heard your own song just after you woke up in the morning. XD It makes me missed someone truly, madly and deeply. lolx.
As usual, lecture for the half of the day. My coursemate planned to have dinner together this Sunday night. We're going out for some western food this weekend. At first, some of them suggest wanna go for bowling before or after the dinner but then most of us don't felt like going so we just go for dinner. Hmm... that bowling suggestion remind me of something i missed so much!! Yea.. I miss bowling so much. The last time I enjoyed playing bowling was around last year august at muar. Just before I injured myself. I missed the time I spent with Brian at bowling centre every weekends when we were in secondary school. Highest record is 6 game straight per day~ XD Those days we are eligible for students card and one game only cost rm2 per person. That's why we really enjoyed and trained on our own ways that time. Hehe... Well, it's kinda sad when I realize that I've lost most of my strength after the injury. I cant even carry my backpack on both shoulder for more than 30 minutes. Sad... But sometimes I wonder maybe it's a good thing also because it strongly affect my thoughts of doing stuff on my own before I get injured. So now, I've learn to asking help from others when I can't do it on my own and apparently it actually draw me closer to some of my friends also. Everything happens for a reason i guess. =)

Blessed Day 2

I felt much better today! After yesterday's sweat I'm back to energetic mode but still kinda blur blur(as usual). I meet my lost contact friend in the bus today. We had a nice chat inside the bus and i'm glad that i meet him today.
First lecture is English oral communication and each one of us are require to make a speech in front of the class (impromptu speech). I was praying that I won't be called to be first person of the day and thank God, He answered my prayer. XD else, I'll never know what did I talk about since my mind is still off that time. =p Well, it was my only lecture for today. The next lecture has been canceled and my coursemate forget to tell us about it. YES!!! 3 of us actually waiting for the lecturer to come in the lecture hall but then we felt weird and called one of my coursemate when non of them appear after 5 minutes of the usual class time starts. Then we walked to bus stop. Hmm... there's something interesting happened as we walked to the bus stop. Haha... someone that I almost forgot appeared. *skip! Afternoon we attended resume talk that is compulsory for final year students at our faculty. After that, went to sutera mall for some groceries shopping and I totally forget about prayer meeting. Hehe... *blush*

Blessed Day 1

First thing I was thinking when I opened my eyes today was I wish I'll receive his sms before I sent him one. It's been quite a while that I didn't received his sms in the morning. Kinda missed it. haha... Then, I look to my timetable telling myself that I should be well prepared and make sure I'll not be dreamy in class today. Then part of me missed his voice. Wished he'll be the first voice I heard before I started my day. (I guess I've started to dream at that moment.XD)
Lecture as usual and I'm not blur in the class today. Thank God for that. My lunch... had nasi ayam from SUB again. This is my 2nd nasi ayam for this week but then i just ate the chicken and half of the rice. XD The whole utm's electricity was off from 12pm to 3.30pm. But then, I'm grateful for it because I sweat alot. My body felt much better after I sweat. So, I treat it as one of God's blessing too~!!
I got my thesis title after discussed it with my lecturer for one and half hours. It's about human personality will affect our academics. It's a quite interesting topic for me. XD After meeting my lecturer, I rushed to southern college with mee na and mee ching for brian's registration.
Spent my night visiting K9's juniors and had lots of fun with them!!

Out of this World

I named my day as out of the world cause I find myself dreamy for most of the day. Even what did i post on my facebook also I did it without any reason. XD I've struggle to drag myself up for class this morning but then my lecturer came in after 1 hour (2hours lecture). Just after 15minutes of lecture then I started 'fishing' in the class. XD Wake myself up by drinking water in the class but then my mind started to fly again. I copied lecturer's note but I have no idea that what is she talking about. Haha... Same goes as my second lecture. What remind me of my second lecture is my friend keep on asking the permission to take a picture of my feet. Reason? Just because I got ring on one of my toes. He told me he never seen toe ring and wanna share it at his blog. Haha...
Went back after lecture and accidently fell on the staircase cause I didn't watched over the steps but I'm not injured. Thank God for that. *Too blur until didn't realise my steps.*
Took a nap for 1 hour then got up feeling uneasy. My body is hot outside but cold inside and I felt dizzy. Mee Ching asked me why do I looked so pale on my face but then I seriously I don't know why. Maybe I'm too tired?? or maybe my body doesn't get used to the environment here?? But whatever it is. I still thank God for giving me this day.

My Way Of Life

Life is just a miracles!!! Everyday is a brand new day with a brand new start.
Everything in life is a gift from God. Even myself.
For who I am; who I was alike; and who will I be in the future is all about God's gift.