Touched 2

Second vision came to me as Pastor was calling and praying for Holy Spirit to filled our mind and soul. At first, I didn't felt anything and I thought I won't felt anything tonite. But it came, just before the Pastor asked someone to share their vision.

I saw myself and my hand are being hold by a man, whom I cannot see his face. I was lead into a triangle shape of silver steel and the triangle shape is turning around me, it feels like being lock inside with fears in me. Then, the man, again, he hold my hand and bring me of out it, where I feel relieve after that. But then, he told me, you have to replace and put a blue and white light on it, then we move on.

I couldn't interpret it clearly. But I knew it is something God wants to speak to me.

Touched

It's Good Friday! As usual, we went for church services on this day. But the amazing part of this Good Friday is I can feel that God is trying to speak to me. I admit that, it's been a really long while ever since everyone that prayed for me, keep telling me that God wants to speak to me. I listened to them but somehow the message didn't got into me. Maybe I was afraid. Afraid of all the circumstances I have to face if I silence myself down. Or maybe God knew and waiting for the right time.

I heard a voice and had a vision that. God is telling me to open up myself. There is a vision of me hugged by a man and I lay my head upon his shoulder. A very quick and clear vision, and a very clear voice telling myself to forgive my own. The voice continue saying, "I've come and paid it all for you, my dear. Why can't you just forgive yourself, Rona. and stop." I asked back, "teach me, how to open up my heart." But the voice, " open up your heart, and forgive yourself." keep on repeating, as well as the vision came for the second time.

It just ended up that way, I didn't told anyone about it as I'm not sure who to turn to. But, in that few minutes, I felt really comforted.

I label this as Toughest part of my life as well because the thing that has been keeping and pulling me for all this while is the most tough happening in my life till I could hardly let it go and forgive myself.

Feeding the Five Thousand

Sunday~ As usual, woke up early for church morning service. Today's sermon is interesting, which is about the story of Jesus feeding the five thousand people. Why do i say it's interesting? Well, all this while, my view about this story is just about one of the miracle that Jesus had done but it also shows some part of our life. The power of prayer. Jesus prayed for the very little food that they have on that time and surprisingly everyone are blessed with more than enough food. God answered Jesus prayer and He knew Jesus prayed confidently and faithfully that God will blessed all of them. Everyday we had our quite time and we prayed for the day. But are we confident enough that God will answered our prayer when we walked out of the door? Even if He didn't answered, will we still continue to pray confidently and faithfully? My mum prayed for my dad for about 17 years before my dad became a christian. For 17 years, every morning my mum prayed for my dad, humble, crying, confidently and faithfully believes that God will answered her prayer. and yes... God answered with a different way. It's a very beautiful and blessed memories for me.