Blessed Day 5

It's been awhile that I didn't update my day in here. My younger bro, Brian is studying here now... same state same district but not the same campus. It's always nice and comfort when there's family member around you. I'm thankful and happy that God placed Brian here, very near to me. At least, I know who to depend on when got mechanical problems. XD That's not all I'm thankful and happy about... there's more.... some of u may knew it already, me n brian always stick together even when he or me is going for a date. haha... We shared almost every single part of our life, most of the incidents that happened, our thoughts, our weaknesses, spirituals being and even some generic skills. That's how close we are.... from bro and sis to closest fren or maybe being a trouble maker sometimes; but anyhow it's God blessing and anointing that make us one.

Back to my final year life, busy busy busy..... busy till only spent 30min for sleep also got... tension tension tension coz of lecturers, assignments and some other thing. Until I started to wondering... izzit every final year student will experience this kind of situation?? Full of tension and anxious everyday... I miss those days that I could easily wake myself up in the morning. I miss those days that I could just spent enough of my time on cg... feel bad for myself... I also miss those days that I could just treat everything easy (lack of sleep makes me feel stress easily). haiz... It's a pleasure and thankful that I could spent part of my night today in sharing together with cg. I miss cg sharing moments so badly, a place where(beside my house) I can share... I had a great time tonite althou some cant joined us but I felt very comfy already. Thankiu my dearly cg's members~!! May God Bless You All... gambateh!!

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"New Thinking. New Rona." I like this slogan very much. hehe... It remain me that I should refresh my mind everyday. As a christian, we have to forgive and forget whatever others had done to us before the sun set... but it's not easy to do that everyday especially towards those that really made us torturing and hurting inside. Somehow, we have to forgive and forget also and it's actually gives us a better sleep at night.

It's Just Another Those Days....

Came back from kedah this morning, reached my room around 2am with a compound letter, fined me for hanging clothes at the locker handle??!!??.... Forget bout it... I'm terribly tired and my neck is pain already. Skipped my 9am class this morning, really tired and woke up around 11am. Just after 30min awake, I was given a huge surprise--->"Pass up assignment at 12" Again... we're played by the same lecturer... he post the question and the due date were this thursday but then.... he edit it w/o informing anyone... My mind--> "forget bout tht, I got quiz at 2pm later. 1st thing 1st..." About 1 hour later, another surprise!! Assignment due changed to 5pm. wth... We got class from 2pm till 4pm and class at 3pm-4pm is his class. Doesn't he realize that?? Doesn't he felt thst he's way too much for torturing us?? I had enough these days... I really do... I just wanna be neutral... just don't wanna get myself out of control especially when I'm alone. My tears likes to flow out of my eyes when I'm alone and I'll felt terrible pain inside of me every time my tears come. I have to told myself everything would be fine after tears or else it just won't stop feeling pain inside.
Maybe I disappointed him today. I refuse to send him my picture. Sorry dear. I don't want to show this miserable look of mine today. Hope you understand.
Read my bro's blog and he did mention about clubbing... clubbing a place where I can sweat by dancing the whole night even w/o a partner. Maybe for someone it is a wrong place for me to be but I just wanna emphasize... I'm going there coz it's one of the ways to release stress, and get myself workout and learn some moves... and I'm staying out of drugs and drunk. So izzit still a wrong place for me to be??

Going to Kedah for school visitation

I'll be away for this weekend for school visitation. It's part of our coursework marks and this time we'll go alor setar, kedah. Don't know how am I going to bare that 10 hours in a bus. XD
Hmm.... Don't know why I'm not excited for this trip... but somehow I hope I'll enjoy it. I'll be offline for this weekend guys!!
I did a morning call today and I hope it'll brighten up his day. *shy* Miss him to the max!!! But he is busy with some workshop so don't wanna disturb him la... 3 days 2 night trip means 3 days 2 night can't online.... aaaahhhh.... can don't want ma??? I miss him le... huhuhu...

Anger

"Anger is an emotional state that may range from minor irritation to intense rage." (Wikipedia)
Everyone gets angry; it’s a natural human emotion. Maybe anger is healthy but if it becomes uncontrollable, it can become destructive....

Yeah... I'm dealing with my own anger this few days. Although I may not showing it physically but emotionally i did... by posting it at my fb shout out... XD
I find myself has difficulty in showing my anger physically... and it happens very often. But i'm lucky enough cause there's always someone there to backup me.... Then, always advice me to be brave to show my aggressive part after backup me. haha... Sometime I did shows my anger but only when it's really boiling me up for a long time. That's why i often heard "It's okay with rona la. She won't angry one." or "I never seen u angry b4 le..." Hmm... sometime I do hope I have the guts to show it on the spot but it always end up keeping myself quiet for the rest of the time. Yea... when u found me being totally quiet in a sudden... tht's actly I'm angry or something is bothering me already but then I won't show it because I don't want to hurt anyone. haha... I knew it's actly not a good thing to keep all the anger inside but I really have problem in showing it. So how do i release it??? Tears, karaoke, McD or burger king, dancing, burst it out with close ones and getting myself sweats.... That's most of the way I release it and it must be done just before I slept... or else... I can't get a good sleep on that night. Hehe... One more thing, I don't like to deal with anger in early morning especially just after I woke up... it always bother and spoiled my day.... haha... beware guys~!!

It's Just Another Those Days....

Felt tired, miserable, terrible and anything I couldn't think off. Woke up late this morning around 840am and guess what!! I got quiz class at 9am!! Rush... change clothes, brush teeth, wash face then grab notes and go!! Too bad... I'm still late for quiz... 10minute late. But still... at least I did pass up something. Felt sorry for mc and pres coz they were late coz of me..=) sorry girls!! The story goes on.... what happened next?? I got gastric in class so I skipped my second class and went to have some breakfast which I had to force myself to eat it. huhuhu.... After breakfast, meet lecturer for one of my assignment then entered the next class. Gosh!! our group power point is totally different from other group!! We got the wrong perception for today's presentation. wuwuwuwu... then we just simply present on the spot coz there's no time to modify our power point anyhow. AArrrGGGGhhhhh..... after all lecture, I was preparing myself to meet my thesis lecturer and got a call from someone regarding one of my subject assignment.... not a good news either... we're required to join a programme on next tuesday and wednesday, plus we have to produce a module for that programme and our faculty dean is following!!! inside me-----> *WHAT!!!! PREPARE MODULE IN TWO DAYS???!!!!??? DEAN ALSO FOLLOWING???!!!!??? DUH!!!!* Tht's not end of the story yet... after I hang up the call then I find out I left my thesis chapter 1 in my room!! Too rush and I didn't double checked what did I grab this morning. AAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I really wanna scream that time.... called mc asked what shud I do then... I really have no idea that time blurred and upset of myself that cause this much trouble... Well, instead of keep wondering what negative views and minus my marks from my lecturer.... It's better to think how am I going to meet lecturer then. *Deep breath!!* Inside of me told me just go and be honest! mc said she felt the same way too. I'm not sure that lecturer told me his not that free today as he has some visitors from KL is my the point where my luck turned. Bravely, I told him everything. Hmmm.... I guess I did show up my anxious and he asked me to be more focus. aaarrrggghhh....

Waiting for the One

I find myself always waiting for something recently, especially for the special one. "Waiting" which originated from the word "wait", is a word that needs a lot of patient and is very challenging in some situation. Some people spent their whole life waiting for the right one at the right time but some just couldn't wait until the right time, and just keep on searching till the right one came into sight. Generally, everyone is waiting for the one........ and the one that I'm waiting for is.......

someone who will give me a morning call sometime...
someone who always will try to understand me...
someone who need me when he's down...
someone who think of me just after he woke up every morning...
someone who appreciate every single moments we spent together...
someone who shows he cares no matter what's the situation is...
someone who knows my weakness and accept it...
someone who can bear with me sometime...
someone who respects me…
someone who don't mind about my shameful past...
someone who loves to hold my hands...
someone who insists to be beside me even i ask him not to...
someone who wanna grow old with me...
someone who shows how precious am I to him...
someone who will hug me when I cry...
someone who will kiss my forehead instead of my lips...
someone who will give me surprise...
someone who will try all his best to light up my day...
someone who I can think of at the first place every morning...
someone who makes me comfortable with...
someone who I can share my everything and be honest with myself...
someone who wants to be my closest friend other than just a life-partner...
someone who insists to meet me even when I refuse to...
someone who won't leave me alone even I force him to...
someone who loves to spend time with me...
someone who is alert and knows what am i thinking...
someone who think and will told his friends I'm the one for him...
someone who able to take care of me when I'm sick...
someone who wants to take me deeper into part of him…
someone who is indeed in love with me...