Touched 2

Second vision came to me as Pastor was calling and praying for Holy Spirit to filled our mind and soul. At first, I didn't felt anything and I thought I won't felt anything tonite. But it came, just before the Pastor asked someone to share their vision.

I saw myself and my hand are being hold by a man, whom I cannot see his face. I was lead into a triangle shape of silver steel and the triangle shape is turning around me, it feels like being lock inside with fears in me. Then, the man, again, he hold my hand and bring me of out it, where I feel relieve after that. But then, he told me, you have to replace and put a blue and white light on it, then we move on.

I couldn't interpret it clearly. But I knew it is something God wants to speak to me.

Touched

It's Good Friday! As usual, we went for church services on this day. But the amazing part of this Good Friday is I can feel that God is trying to speak to me. I admit that, it's been a really long while ever since everyone that prayed for me, keep telling me that God wants to speak to me. I listened to them but somehow the message didn't got into me. Maybe I was afraid. Afraid of all the circumstances I have to face if I silence myself down. Or maybe God knew and waiting for the right time.

I heard a voice and had a vision that. God is telling me to open up myself. There is a vision of me hugged by a man and I lay my head upon his shoulder. A very quick and clear vision, and a very clear voice telling myself to forgive my own. The voice continue saying, "I've come and paid it all for you, my dear. Why can't you just forgive yourself, Rona. and stop." I asked back, "teach me, how to open up my heart." But the voice, " open up your heart, and forgive yourself." keep on repeating, as well as the vision came for the second time.

It just ended up that way, I didn't told anyone about it as I'm not sure who to turn to. But, in that few minutes, I felt really comforted.

I label this as Toughest part of my life as well because the thing that has been keeping and pulling me for all this while is the most tough happening in my life till I could hardly let it go and forgive myself.

Step 1

"Time flies that sometime we din even have the chance to look at it carefully. I've made my life's decision today~ this time there's no more turning back and so on~ either you strike or you fall, Rona. It's all starting from today. "

I named it as step 1 because this is the day I paid for my tuition fee. I am touched, so touched until I can't barely describe the word, how much did my parents done for me.  How could I repay all back? Daddy hair turned to white, mummy looks older than when I first flied to Labuan for my matriculation. It was just 6years ago but things changed so much that I couldn't even get a chance to look at it one by one. I told myself that I should remember this day, this feeling, how I felt for them, recorded it, that I may always remember this wherever I stepped for the rest of my life.  I shouldn't forget this feeling and strive on behalf of them because they deserve it so much more than I should.

 

Chaotic and Hectic April 2011

It's been a chaotic and hectic April this year. Assignments, Works, all came in non-stop-Ly. Stress covered my days but I... I couldn't do anything except leave it to God. I am worry and stress but I'm also good in stay away and hiding it. *I guess*.  The way how things goes in this month of April, I'm concerned, whether can I faced it alone when I'm outside of my comfort zone?? I choose to be outside of my comfort zone, bravely. But then am I really ready for that? I'm going to live with strangers *althou we're same hometown, I named them strangers b'coz I do not knw who they are now* under one roof. I'm going to walk to class alone~ *Have to wake up on my own as well* No more buddies surrounding, I have to find one on my own. Or else, stress, relief, tension, nervous is all under my own. Will i able to handle it with care?

I remember Peggy asked me about am I really sure of what am I doing? Decide it before it's too late. Whether do you really wanna make SHE as your lifetime job? To be precise, I'm in doubt as well, aren't it's such a pity story that we've spent more of our lives in educating ourselves and yet we still feel that it's NOT RIGHT??   I'm not sure whether I can really make it as my lifetime work, but it just feel so right ever since I've decide to take this as my master. I couldn't felt the same way like I went for my degree years ago. *which i never tell anyone before* Even though, some of the class is boring and boring, but I still felt I like the way it is.  That's the reason, I go for it. I take and shallow all the possibilities I might faced and stepped out of my own circles and GO FOR IT.

 Even though, it's full of worries and scariness, but still, I believe there's always a reason behind these feelings. 

Buried.

It's not a new movie but I just watched it tonite.  I think it's cool!! It's actually really impressed me.  Never heard of movie with only one location and situation.  Plus, the location is in a coffin!! Buried alive.  It's actually reflect how life really are.  Even though, we're free to move around, do we really out of the box or coffin? Or we're only moving inside the box and trying so hard to get out of it??  What can we do if we are been bury alive?  How should we free ourselves?  You'll got that winding  in your mind after you watched this.

Weekend Eve and Weekends Fun!!

Thursday, after morning class.... It's durian time!!!! 9 of us went to tmn. U for some durian hunting.  We ate almost 1 and half dozen of durians and it only cost us rm9 per person!! ^^ I bought 4 pieces for brian and dad after tht. ^^

It's Friday!! Friday has always been the busiest day of the week~ This friday I canceled one of my tuition and went tebrau jusco for a movie!! ^^ and I found myself a new car when I arrive there. ^^

Saturday~ as usual~morning went out early for tuition then afternoon we went bukit indah for lamb chop at thamara!! I think I'll gonna miss this place~ the lamb chop is superb!!

All time favourite!! This is one of my fav. coconut drink from jusco bukit indah. ^^

Must GrAB!!!!

Wake up to a free breakfast!! Tht's what I really did, for a free 2 big breakfast set.  I think it's really worth it!! RM5 for 2 sets of big breakfast. Share it with your companion, definitely you'll pay the price with "I'm Lovin' It." on your mind. ^^