It's Me or It's You?

As time flies, everything that goes around turn to be different. Hope, believe, and honesty, and also wealth, it all turned to be different. The person that I used to be known has changed. Things that usually happen doesn't turn up. Whether is it the way I looked at this world changed? Whether am I mature enough to evaluate? or am I still the one that thinking childishly? Human's nature, when surrounding changed dramatically, we could either felt comfortable or uncomfortable. Smile or Tears at the end of the day.

I choose to smile every morning when i woke up. Treat everything as usual as it is, and try to make every single seconds of my day, happy. But still, I hate to be alone. Especially at night. I remembered Britney Spears' "Lucky" (i'm not her fan anyway), and that's the way I felt mostly, at the end of the day. I couldn't help myself. I'm lucky, that most of the time, I am the last one to sleep in the nite. At least, no one will get worry. Sometime, I thought, maybe it's just too much anxiety. Too much and it's time to let go, and make it fast. I wish I knew how to let go some of my pieces.

Here's a quote I goggled and finds it quite match with my situation now. Enjoy~ 
"I believe we are still so innocent. The species are still so innocent that a person who is apt to be murdered believes that the murderer, just before he puts the final wrench on his throat, will have enough compassion to give him one sweet cup of water. "-Maya Angelou

Anxiety

When life knocks you down,

try to land on your back.

Because if you can look up,

you can get up.

Let your reason get you back up.

Worrying is like a rocking chair,

it gives you something to do,

but it gets you nowhere. ~Glenn Turner

Don't fight with the pillow, but lay down your head

And kick every worriment out of the bed.

~Edmund Vance Cooke~

I'm worry about something, someone this few week. A boy.
It's seem that many of my friend had troubles in losing part of their life comfort zone.
Sometime it does flash back my life, as i am a person who don't like to be alone as well.

Losing someone you really care or someone you wish to take care of is really not that easy. The word "LOVE" is sweet, tender, beautiful, joyfulness, victory but might be a disappointment word as well. But amongst hope, faith and love. LOVE is still the greatest of all. It influence us a lot especially emotionally which is the greatest weak point of our mind and might control our physical too.

Anyway, my advice is, boys, please please realize and make sure what are you doing and what do you feel and ensure you are heading the correct way of handling your emotion and LOVE. We as girls would prefer you to be honest with yourself and us. Plus, handle us with care and firm. If you choose to let go, Make it firm and clean. If you choose to grab it, Hold it strongly like you'll never had another chance anymore.

Christmas December!

It's the month of Christmas! This year i manage to celebrate it with my family and relatives. I miss celebrating this season with my lovely cousin!! More good news is... one of my fren is going to celebrate with me too!! ^^ BBQ, pot bless, visiting open houses, karaoke, games, gift exchange and group presentation is all we used to prepared and enjoyed it every night from Christmas eve till new year eve. ^^ My fren can't even imaging it! and yes... he was amaze when he manage to follow us to celebrate Christmas this year.. He look so surprise and there are many new experiences. ^^ I hope he will gonna join us again next year.. I'm really so happy tht he could join us. ^^

The Day You choose to LET GO

It's been months... we never had a nice conversation after I came bck from your convocation. Is distance really matters to you? Or izzit we'll have to see each other everyday to get close? Whenever I flash back the moments when we're still young,it's just so sweet and beautiful. But now, it's getting bitter and even tasteless. Till today.. u've make a decision that I wouldn't even think of it. Perhaps, everything changed after u ended ur student's life. I noticed My advice, my comment, my idea and my sharing have turned to craps and useless words since the last few months. Maybe God answered my prayer this time. Maybe God made known that u're not the one for me this time. From now on~ BYE BYE to my status and WELCOME BACK to my single life. Life is still wonderful and always be wonderful i believe.

Master 1st Sem

It's already the 9th week of semester, but yet, still felt nothing like i'm studying hard. I still felt like i'm still on holiday mood even thought it's been 9 weeks away from holidays. Nevertheless, it's a great and enjoyable experiences in this 9 weeks. I'm still the old style students who like slacking slacking and slacking always... and sometime i do wonder... would i be able to do the same thing if I'm not studying at malaysia. Haha... We get used to the education systems here, get used to lecturers' thinking and we know how to handle, how things works, the cultures, and that why we are immune to our surrounding here. But what if... what if I've decide to pursue my Master outside of Malaysia at the first place?? Even thought I have decided to stayed back but I still felt like wanna go out there and try... *wildness still in me*. Compared to local here, some of technology are limited and we can't really focus on our dreams of invention, cultures of industries are also totally different here and outside. It's very very obvious especially when i need to decide my thesis title, there are lots and lots of limitation have to be consider, but somehow some still achieved it and they are the ppl i really admired.

Wonder, wonder,wonder.... there is a lots and lots of wonder for the pass 9 weeks of preparing my thesis proposal. Even till now, I'm still wondering... wonder can i really make it? will I gain permission from Shell??... hmm... I don't know. Even my own supervisor told me it's hard... but still I wanna try it... at the same time, the other part of me wondering can i finish in 1 year if i failed so then?? hmm...

local uni VS oversea uni

LOCAL vs OVERSEA university== 1yr vs 3yrs
tht's the thing keep repeating in my mind recently...
mum and bro encourages to go internationally...
but then dad says... it's ok if u dun wan to...just study locally la!
Oh God.. guide me..

Back to hometown

Long time didn't update my blog already...
I lost my part-time job... but then it's a good thing for me. coz I'm back HOME..
Hometown is always the most comfortable place to hang around... Remember the time I got the sms saying my job has been canceled, I doesn't feel bad but then HOME is straight into my mind. Haha... I should say thankyou to the tuition centre... ^^

The coolest part is... my parents bought me a new bed!! and waiting for me to choose my own cupboard while I'm back.... haha... I got a new room!!! Oh YES!!